Oh darling, don't you ever grow up

I was talking to a friend about how scary it can be to now realise that we're adults. Even though I'm past the official age of being considered an adult, but somehow part of me feels like I still enjoy being a youth (teenager).

For starters, I don't like wearing formal clothes, make-up and high heels. I like wearing shorts, casual dresses, blouses, flip flops and flat comfy shoes. I hope everyday I can just be myself and wear casual clothes. I always secretly wished that no one invented make up and high heels.

Even though I like going to work and I do enjoy what I do, I still don't feel fully comfortable about having to be "professional", and speaking in a certain way to my clients.

And it's pretty surreal to see my peers getting married. It's still quite unbelievable. Just when I thought that marriage is for adults... I realise that I'm already an adult.

I know it sounds strange, but I can't believe I'm an adult.

I wonder whether anyone else feels that same way. Or is it just me, and my friend whom I was sharing this with?

Nevertheless, I enjoy the privileges of being an adult. Some awesome perks would be having your own money and say about how you spend it; being able to make your own decisions about who you hang out with and what you do with your time.

But it's scary also... the part about commitment and responsibility, and having the pressure to conform to society's standards of what it means to be an adult. You can't just play around so much and you need to take ownership of your mistakes. And it seems like you can't talk too much nonsense and act childish.

I guess every life stage is different, and maybe the grass is always greener on the other side. It helps to remember who I am, because that will never change and no matter what happens, I want to stay true to myself and my identity.