Feeling discouraged

Feeling pretty discouraged that I have been struggling with a particular relatively new skill at work. As one gets more experienced in the field, sometimes it feels harder not to feel guilty about not knowing something well enough. Sometimes I think I put too much pressure on myself to quickly grow and improve. This is largely because I have a dream - to be a good counsellor and trainer.

Sometimes the dream seems near, but other times it also seems far away, I keep asking myself how come I didn't pick up something fast enough, I wasn't able to respond appropriately and quickly enough, I couldn't think on the spot quick enough to resolve the issues at hand. I do doubt myself at times, in certain situations.

Well, this song helped cheer me up - maybe some might think it is frivolous, because it is too idealistic or movie-like. But I like how the song talks about how life can have many obstacles, and it is because of these obstacles that makes our dreams sweeter than fiction.

I don't know whether I'll achieve my dream, but I want and would like to believe that the challenges and struggles along the way are part of the molding process for me to be the counsellor and trainer that I seek to be. And even if the dream doesn't turn out what I may hope for, I also want to see the process of getting there a fruitful one.

You know that I'll be there time and again
'Cause I loved you when, when you
Hit the ground, hit the ground, hit the ground, oh oh
Only sound, only sound that you heard was "No"
Now in this perfect weather
It's like we don't remember
The rain we thought would last forever and ever (forever)

There you'll stand, ten feet tall
I will say, "I knew it all along."
Your eyes–wider than distance
This life–sweeter than fiction  - Taylor Swift