It is really painful to experience one's own emotional distancing from another because one is too afraid to experience hurt and insecurity again, because one doesn't feel safe with another whom one had initially desired to feel safe with. To be honest, I don't think that desire would ever come back because some people are just not safe to be vulnerable to.
Beyond just dwelling on the pain, I think it is to recognize that some people just don't have the capacity to provide that safety, even though ideally they should be providing it. But thank God I now have the ability to choose the right people or person who could provide the safety and I can develop my own safety for myself. I'm thankful that God can be my secure base and safe place that will never fail me.
“Safe?”.... Who said anything about safe? ‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.- The Lion, the witch and the wardrobe
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