Ambivalence

The feeling that your mind is separated from your emotional experiences is a very unsettling process.
Trying to battle this separation and to be comfortable with the incredible discomfort.
It's kind of like trying to find your footing and firm ground to stand when things feel unstable.
It's like sometimes you wonder why truth and experience can seem so different from how you'd expect them to be.
Your experience takes you to question why people who are suppose to be truth bearers don't seem to be relevant in the pain.
How can truth be relevant in the pain and suffering?
Can truth be truly life giving and life changing?

Maybe people are not whom we should find the truth in ultimately.
At best they can only be imperfect bearers of the truth.
Is there one who truly is the way, the truth and the life?
Maybe it is time to seek the truth that is life giving and life changing.
we can explore where this path leads.

May there be breakthroughs and opportunities during this ambivalence.