positions, perspectives and presence

Recently, I've been feeling the competing demands of work and studies, and also sharing my faith to someone. It's caused me to feel quite anxious about how I am going to cope with everything as so many things are calling for my attention and action. This morning I just felt the weight of it all dawning upon me when I got the a work news about a possible manpower loss that we may be experiencing in the near future. 

In terms of school, it's almost mid semester and assignments and projects are increasing. At work, there is a new transition and whole new system that one has to adapt to. I look at my schedule and tell myself that the task ahead seems humanly quite impossible. Been getting tension headaches and there was one night I woke up in the middle of the night because I was quite traumatized by an event that happened at work during the day. Part of me feels overwhelmed and depressed, the other part of me feels resigned to the reality and is trying to assure myself to take one day at a time and that God is in control. 

Thank God for some breaks in between. Today as I was feeling the weight of everything, I was reminded that God's presence is with me through this. Honestly I don't know how God's presence would help practically, but at least I know that He is in control of my life. Part of me felt privileged to know that God is still with me. And I just felt so blessed to be able to be in school to learn how God and His Kingdom matters in my work, even though I do not necessarily feel that way when I am at work at times because I feel pretty overwhelmed at the sheer amount of work we have to do. 

So, anyway, there are a lot of conflicting feelings and thoughts within myself. So many perspectives and positions we can take to perceive things. Yet there is an abiding presence no matter what. Just praying that I will be able to rest in this constant presence, even while so many other things are not constant.